Spcik
Well she noticed me, she was a beautiful white girl… I couldn’t believe it, I fell in love instantly, but didn’t want her to catch on at first site. I mean we know white people, egos…right? And beautiful, she could have anyone…I loved her, but trust was a question, especially with everyone else beside my heart… don’t hurt it, girl!
Its been full of no promises and ridiculous behavior on her part, a crazy white girl, a mess, a disaster, everyone tells me not to care for her, no one loves her, stay away, let her be. I do, I come “home” whether its her selfish home or ours, I am a latino, what does she care. I question everything about her. Her family made a point and I refuse to listen to her too…selfish child, grow up! You expect me to clean?
I had no partner at the time, I liked her…but doors opened for me, after her, I have been having fun, how could I have a soulmate when she doesn’t love herself, even close…!
Obstacles have you encountered in that relationship were: Fighting! Resistance! I feel like her worst enemy and I hers.
I feel we did have a love affair in the beginning. But we come from different parties, no two shall meet and its been 8 months, still “together” or whatever…its like is the Universe forcing me to have a soulmate, I don’t want permanence or a ball and chain, you know? She tells me she doesn’t either.
We are not in a relationship now, we are choosing to love ourselves, so do our own things…go personal development! lol
Soul love has made my life adventurous, and fun. I am enjoying myself immensely. And she manifests really cool things, we were homeless and now we have a place.
Th emost special… Its just the first connection….like the first sip or bite…seemed to deevolve after that.
My tip for others is: I am writing for a soulmate, I thought was mine, I am a writer, I am the white girl, its stupid…love is the most abused thing on this planet and beyond.
Love sucks…remember Romeo and Juliet, Titian and Isolde, Marilyn and JFK…etc…its a disaster, its irresponsible, its crazy, its outlaw, its wanted by all…be careful, I mean it! Just love yourself, no matter what! This country is beyond manipulative with manifesting! I feel