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A year later…..
Last June it was that I wondered why I reacted so strongly to you, I did not understand it at all. Of course I knew that we could get along well and understood each other like no other, but I could never have imagined that this was a matter of soul love. I had never even heard of it. How could someone I knew only superficially have such an impact on me and my feelings? At first I thought it was about normal attraction and later on falling in love. You released feelings in me that I didn’t even know I had. I really have no idea why I told you that. I hadn’t thought about the consequences at all, I just wanted to share it with you! You panicked and you wrapped around you. I’ve never seen anyone run so fast! You made it hard for me! And why? Because I told you about my feelings? You found me dangerous and you made my situation so difficult that it eventually became an untenable situation. I could no longer continue to work there. I had to leave the work and the place that I loved so much. Quite apart from the fact that my marriage was also on the rocks. By the way, you were not the cause but the reason. I no longer had any ground under my feet. A sustained neglected burnout also did not help. I had lived for months on “fake” energy and when it disappeared was the Quite apart from the fact that my marriage was also on the rocks. By the way, you were not the cause but the reason. I no longer had any ground under my feet. A sustained neglected burnout also did not help. I had lived for months on “fake” energy and when it disappeared was the Quite apart from the fact that my marriage was also on the rocks. By the way, you were not the cause but the reason. I no longer had any ground under my feet. A sustained neglected burnout also did not help. I had lived for months on “fake” energy and when it disappeared was the
misery complete. I have stood literally and figuratively at the abyss. I could not hold on any longer! I also didn’t want anymore! I finally realized that that was not a solution. I should do the same lessons again! But how deep I have been and been sick. Deep pain and hurt to the bone. Yet even then my love fell on. He seemed to nestle deeper and deeper. I became crazy until I ended up on this site every time I was looking for answers. There I found my answers and recognition. So I was not crazy and certainly not the only one! I learned to surrender to the process and started to feel and know and understand more and more. You woke me up and shook me up and although I hope never to go that deep again, I am grateful to have met you. I love you to the depths of my soul and I would love to give you and your boys what you long for. I have enough for all of you! You were my mirror and now I hope you want to look into it yourself! Look very carefully because you will see me there! I know that you now also feel more and more and even know that we are connected. I can only hope that you will no longer run away from it! Take your time and in the meantime I will keep waiting “on the other side” where we keep meeting and showing our true self. I know that you now also feel more and more and even know that we are connected. I can only hope that you will no longer run away from it! Take your time and in the meantime I will keep waiting “on the other side” where we keep meeting and showing our true self. I know that you now also feel more and more and even know that we are connected. I can only hope that you will no longer run away from it! Take your time and in the meantime I will keep waiting “on the other side” where we keep meeting and showing our true self.
A year later…. I’m doing better. I am not there yet but I am on the right track. I came out stronger but only you can make me shine! Finally found my great love, literally and figuratively 😉 but you don’t want me, at least not yet! I have faith. Do you trust me now, I am not going to force it or make it difficult for you, I have never done that! That has always been your own interpretation, that says enough!