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We have a company where people can come and go. I don’t go into too much detail because I have had a relationship for years and a child. My soul love suddenly came to us in the store. He drew to me … and I to him … we looked into each other’s eyes and there was recognition … simply … we talked to each other with our eyes.
My feelings go all the way to him … need to be with him … it has nothing to do with sexual attraction …. I just want to be with him … he understands me without words … he feels me how I am in my relationship … .. he stays with words and with his eyes sending the unconditional love to me … the feeling of desire and kind of coming home is so strong…..
We have a contact relationship in the sense of … sending unconditional love to each other … he comes here in the business … he knows that I have a family … everything just goes his way … our lives have changed after recognition … but I still live in my life and he in his own … .. to date we still have a lot of contact … without others knowing …
It is our time not to make it public yet, first we have to find our way in this feeling … the intense feeling that you have to be experienced together first must be understood by me … .. if I still do not fully understand … how do I explain it then off to my family …
The obstacles we have at the moment are … he is free man … I have a family … I must first find my way in what I now experience …. this feeling that I feel goes so deep … it hurts not to be with him … yet there is no pain … because I know that he is always with me … in my dreams … in my thoughts and in my soul …
We cannot hide our attraction to each other in public … because in the case we automatically pull together with eye contact … only with eye contact can we read each other’s thoughts…. now is not the time to start a relationship …
We are currently enjoying each other by seeing each other occasionally in my shop … then others are always there … so we cannot talk … but our eyes talk … we do the talking via the sms … hundreds of sms can be about I think you are sweet … hundreds of text messages can make us both tired …
My soul love has held up a mirror to me … he let me feel again what I could no longer feel and what I had already given up and resigned to…. my current relationship has been without love for 7 years due to an event in the relationship…. my soul love brought me the intense feeling that I can feel and show love again…. he makes me aware that after 7 years of giving up I have to choose for myself again …
At the moment the most special thing we have experienced is that we are concerned about each other … we know nothing about each other’s past … it is suddenly an intense feeling for each other … and the patience we have is enormous …
We have not experienced (maybe not yet) eroticism together…. we have had touches with each other … those touches are invisible to others … but they were so intense .. I don’t dare to meet him alone … because my feeling says when I kiss him … that I am home … he is my home …. but it can’t be that way yet … I have to take my child into account …
The feeling goes so deep …. your feeling speaks to you … your heart speaks to you … your mind is struggling to contradict and control the feeling … he has my thought for 24 hours … but there is no … must …. no impatience … we still have plenty of time … it is unconditionally feeling love ….
I am not thinking that I am losing sight of him … but if it happened because time for us is not yet … then I know … that in our dreams we will always be together … and with our thoughts just as we don’t sleep … just knowing that he is around … that makes me so very happy and happy …
What I feel now, I will not feel again with someone … I simply can not say how deeply intense this feeling goes … so but suddenly you are unconditional for someone … who you did not know before … where you know no past … . you just love someone from day 1.
For me this is an initial phase of the encounter … I still have to finish things in my life … to hopefully be with him later in this life and make our last journey here on earth … together he and I …