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I met my soulmate / twinflame exactly 2 years ago in the gym. He works there. I already had a feeling of hmm then I know him from somewhere? He seemed very familiar to me, but there is no indication of where I could know him. I also looked for nothing further. I remember when my mom said: that’s a nice boy about him! But I didn’t do anything about it. But since last year something has developed between us. Since I started training more often, I started talking to him more often. There was also an enormous attraction. Besides training, he also trains there and that is how we saw each other more often. It started very friendly as he has been in a relationship for 4 years. It started more like laughing jokes and especially motivating each other in terms of training. This continued to play for months until feelings came from 2 sides. We always wanted to see each other and with training we always wanted to train together. In addition, when he worked, he did everything to ensure that we started talking. Also on instagram I always knew exactly when he would send me a message. And he looked at my stories fairly quickly. But after a while we noticed that our feelings really got stronger, so we took some distance after the summer holidays. In the meantime, he came to train less and I trained different times and days when he worked / trained. I was and am devastated and I always dreamed about him. And strangely enough when I dream about him I feel his presence strong. I also tried to forget him and I spent a lot of time on myself. Until I found out that his best friend and his father were working at a company where I did an internship 3 years ago. Meanwhile, his neighbor and his second cousin are also on my current internship at the daycare center. No matter how hard I try to forget, he remains in my mind. I feel like his presence is always there. The fact that his father and best friend previously worked at my practice and now his neighbor and second cousin makes me more crazy and sad. In the meantime, I still see him sometimes training or working despite going different times. We sometimes talk but then silence falls again. When I want to tell about my feelings for him, something stops me … What hurts me the most is that I have never been able to conclude this with him. I miss him very much and I know it’s wrong since he’s in a relationship. But nobody nobody makes me feel completely like him. But really nobody. I feel very strongly towards the world and he has really changed my life in a motivating way despite our differences in culture, beliefs etc. What should I do? Not a day goes by when I don’t think about him and the more I hide my feelings the crazier I get …