Unknown

Last year I met my soul love. We had known each other for a while and there was a click from the start. Suddenly the ghost came out of the bottle and our lives never became the same. It is the most beautiful, sweetest, nicest, most wonderful man I have ever met. The intense and unconditional love, physically palpable, has opened my eyes and completely changed my role in my marriage. All of a sudden everything became clear: what I want really exists, I don’t have to settle for less. Coming home: that’s what I want! My husband, who has a strong control over all of our relationship (I now think he has strong narcissistic traits), has forbidden me any contact, under pain of heavy threats to what he will do to my love of soul. He will never forgive my unfaithfulness.Soul Love and I secretly had mail contact and we decided to stop. The unfairness does not suit us as a person or our relationship. By saying goodbye to the secret there is room for peace and purity, also to our partners back then. At first I got a sort of panic feeling, like a farewell and I am very sad, almost heartbroken. Also fear of having to do “it” alone. “It” is then a struggle in my marriage for my own position, the search for my authenticity that I had lost for so long. Now it feels nice too. I am sad to miss the mail contact. But it gives freedom away from sneakiness. And I think it’s scary too. Scary to continue the journey alone, scary to trust that the soul relationship will also remain without email contact. Accept that it is not necessary to confirm each other – via e-mail. And I also released the desire for a relationship. The desire for him is there every day. The lack. It feels like I have a swimming diploma and for the first time only have to cross one more: I have to rely on my own strength. Is this the intention of meeting your soul love? That you learn to let go: your fears, (unreal) desires, need for confirmation. All my weaknesses; I have to leave them behind and make my own choices. And more importantly: dare to let go of my fears for my own husband. Life is too short for fears. I want to enjoy! It feels like I have a swimming diploma and for the first time only have to cross one more: I have to rely on my own strength. Is this the intention of meeting your soul love? That you learn to let go: your fears, (unreal) desires, need for confirmation. All my weaknesses; I have to leave them behind and make my own choices. And more importantly: dare to let go of my fears for my own husband. Life is too short for fears. I want to enjoy! It feels like I have a swimming diploma and for the first time only have to cross one more: I have to rely on my own strength. Is this the intention of meeting your soul love? That you learn to let go: your fears, (unreal) desires, need for confirmation. All my weaknesses; I have to leave them behind and make my own choices. And more importantly: dare to let go of my fears for my own husband. Life is too short for fears. I want to enjoy! Life is too short for fears. I want to enjoy! Life is too short for fears. I want to enjoy!

Answer 1
My deep respect … I think that you are doing very well and that you will come out. You have taken the right path for yourself. Everything else is ego, don’t be fooled by it! you already know (long), trust yourself and the rest will come naturally! enjoy, before you know it the solution is there! good luck. (Unknown)

Answer 2
Dear unknown. Thank you for your nice response. But what I secretly ask myself is the following. My soul love clearly has the feeling that we are destined for each other. And I also share that feeling more and more. Contrary to what I expected, for example (and where my sad goodbye feeling came from), the loss of “earthly” mail contact has only strengthened the sense of belonging. Deeper anchored, as it were. It seems to give a kind of rest. But…. Do you think that eventually, at some point, when we are both ready, we will come together? Strangely enough, I can let go of that desire (by the way, he has now also opted for his family). Strangely enough, that is not even my greatest desire anymore. My greatest desire is to (re) find my true self independently. Only then do I want to be with my soul love. Only when I dare and can be free of all negative energy, without fear. (Unknown)

Answer 3
I recognize so much from your question, have learned to stand more with both feet on the ground to say what I feel and to live according to my feelings, overcome most fears and ‘let go’ of my twinflame out of love. For him but also for myself and that is difficult, the missing and the enormous love that you so much want to share with the dearest, but it is good that I feel, keep believing and trust in that unconditional love, be proud of what lies behind you and look ahead with hope! my twinflame has given me back to myself, I love myself again and love him to the depths of my soul, never actually respond here but this touches me! (Unknown)

Answer 4
Earlier I asked my question: is this the intention. Closing the secret e-mail contact feels good because it also means that something negative has disappeared. I also wrote that it seems as if the sense of belonging has become stronger. Every moment of the day I think of my soul love. When I wake up at night he is my first thought. My goodness what a loss! And I feel the need to hear from him that he feels the same way, that confirmation. We have both said that we know and feel that with our partners we will never feel that deep, unconditional love at the soul level that is between us. That should give me peace. But I find it so difficult to let him go, to trust that everything will be fine and that our solidarity will continue to exist, even without the mail contact. It really lies on my stomach like a rock. At the moment I have dared to take the step in my relationship to let go of my fear, to make my own choices. But this only produces negative energy and conflicts because my husband cannot and will not accept that. I feel deeply unhappy and intensely sad. (Unknown)

Answer 5
Answer 4, if your husband only tolerates you if you do exactly what he wants, then you don’t have to pick it up. That would make you unhappy, I think. If you claim more space for yourself and he doesn’t want you, that’s really a good reason to seriously start asking yourself if you want to stay with your husband. You do not have to keep dear peace at all costs. (Unknown)