P0401. Pain

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A knot in my stomach
and children’s laughter
so contradictory
on this sunny day

en route to your
knot in my stomach
i have to get through this it
is a school day today

with my Light around me I
drag myself on
with my back to the wall
I take the blows
nobody who still understands
me nobody who can help
me nobody who hears
me I have to get through this

a child’s hand waves at me
that knot in my stomach
that lump in my throat
eyes that pop up
so contradictory
a child’s face so happy

how long does this have to last
how long do I keep this full
do you not care that you are bothering me?

what you do with me
is not Love
what you do with me
is meaningless violence….