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I’m really desperate and very curious. I met my twin almost 5 years ago. Fantastic time. All cliches present. I leave my partner alone with two kids. Enormously grown. My twin also had 4 years in addition. He in relationship, a lot of ego. Continuously pulling and repelling. I worked very hard on myself and my life. But he always pulled me back. Until he always and always did not leave me alone. And I had always had enough of it. I have something to do in this world and it is great if he cannot / does not want to be there. But please leave me. I did the worst and the result is that his relationship is over. Then let him do his own thing completely. Fully accepted that that was our path. I my lesson, he his. Each our own life. I had fully accepted and let go of everything after working hard on myself. I wanted to continue. And after 6 months I finally felt it was going better, my days were no longer influenced by my thoughts / desire / lack of / to / from him. And again after 7 months he visits me again. My life turned upside down, I reject the same patterns of pushing and repelling, including my old patterns. and again it seems like i’m all over again. Finally another rush that was not about anything. I have to start again to find my own way, energy, love and everything again. I have had energetic help several times and that has brought a lot. But I am back again. It influences my days, my energy, my strength. I want to go deeper. I want to get rid of my own life, without feeling his energy, lack and the past. Who oh who has a tip who can help me to break through so that I can live my own life in a pure, free and confident way without that twinsoul energy and aftermath. I’ll see him again next life, I think it’s all right. Just want to be able to live my life and walk my path without his / our energy always keeping me away from it. Because that is a battle that cannot be won. Only after falling and getting up 100 times in 4 years did it take hold of me again. I want and need to get rid of it because otherwise I cannot walk my path the way I feel it is meant to be Recognizable to someone? Experiences? Tips for help? Dear x think it’s all right. Just want to be able to live my life and walk my path without his / our energy always keeping me away from it. Because that is a battle that cannot be won. Only after falling and getting up 100 times in 4 years did it take hold of me again. I want and need to get rid of it because otherwise I cannot walk my path the way I feel it is meant to be Recognizable to someone? Experiences? Tips for help? Dear x think it’s all right. Just want to be able to live my life and walk my path without his / our energy always keeping me away from it. Because that is a battle that cannot be won. Only after falling and getting up 100 times in 4 years did it take hold of me again. I want and need to get rid of it because otherwise I cannot walk my path the way I feel it is meant to be Recognizable to someone? Experiences? Tips for help? Dear x