Shandy
I have always known, from an early age, that it existed, that it could become a reality, but the lack of it in my life has taken over me for much of my life in such a way that I only experienced the pain of absence of it.
Only since the last 10 years or so have I come across books about soul love, which made the recognition revive in me, plus the realization that I was not really alone in what I experienced internally. The 1st boy I met who turned out to be a true soulmate reflected this to me. He was strongly attracted to me – and I to him. I had trouble leaving and leaving him.
The first time I dealt with the other person regularly, but the enthusiasm was SO great,I turned out to feel more passion for the other than for my own partner … My partner seemed to withdraw and allowed us to keep in touch with each other.
I broke up with the other person at some point , because I felt guilty towards my partner, because the other person started to take distance and I could not bear it and because I became sick and the other person did not want to burden me with my worries and it processing process.
I honestly confessed to my partner that I missed the other person very much. Breaking with him only increased the desire. I couldn’t handle it … It was too intense.
A number of things stood out in our contact. We barely knew each other, but he immediately called me ‘darling’, even involuntarily, in the presence of my partner …
There was an openness in our contact, an overflowing enthusiasm and self-evident spontaneity that could not be stopped . In his presence I fully revived and I could only laugh (smile) and I felt incredibly beautiful. I once had the experience of hearing a bell ring when we were sitting, which confused me.
We were sitting in the car and sitting next to each other … he wanted to touch me, but even without touch I felt very bad ‘close’ with him. His attempt to touch me, I turned down, after all, I was not single … but I very much regretted this (my Soul shouted a lot differently )
We could not be more than friends, but there was certainly more between us … Moreover, HE was the one who sent clear signals. Later in our contact, he claimed it was just a “game.” That has always stayed with me. Not only because I knew it wasn’t, but also because I was sorry that he suddenly started to downplay our feelings.
We just wanted to be together, see each other … but we both broke it off …
I’m still suffering . These days I am not so concerned with it anymore, but now that I am writing about it again, everything is coming up again.
Our contact was short-term, but it hit me in a way that I didn’t encounter afterwards …
I was able to taste a brief moment and then it was taken away from me again …
There was a big age difference when I got to know him, he was only around 15. And we care about 14 years … Now I am 37 and he is now 23. At that time, a relationship was not a feasible card. But, I wish that he would have several relationships, in order to gain life experience and grow up to be a mature man …
I was bound, lived together … and could never have chosen him …
I got sick and wanted him not burdening with the worries, the processing process, etc.
Moreover, he became more distant from me, since I was not a free person anyway … this hurt a lot.
Even though I said at some point that it was better to break the contact, this caused me a lot of grief … Since then he has avoided all contact with me …
I can only speak for myself, but if there is a soul affinity, the other is your mirror, so it cannot be other than that he wanted to. He sought a rapprochement in a clearly passionate way.
I have been in love often enough in my life, but what I felt for this boy surpassed everything … I never met anyone again who could stir up such intense feelings in me . I still miss him very much, but I focus on other activities. He is still present in the background …
We have had no contact at all for about 6 years (I believe). I initially tried to restore contact, but he flatly refused.
As I have learned, he has been living together for some time now. When I heard that, I thought it was terrible …. Now I have been free for a number of years and he is bound …
I decided at some point that IF we get in touch again, HE must show initiative. I do not dare anymore.
The worst thing is that, after all this time, he does not make himself heard once, about how my health is now. I do not understand it either….
I have personally experienced that true soul love is the highest attainable on Earth . It can become a reality. The “bad thing” is that I don’t want to settle for less. I want a relationship with someone at Soul level, everything else is a weak extract … I also have plenty of experience with this, so I know what I’m talking about. It is extremely painful for me to realize that all other relationships with people cannot match a Soul-level relationship , while I have had to lack such relationships in my life …
There were several very special moments … one of the nicest was when I told him that I had breast cancer and he asked me if I needed him when he wanted to grab me, but didn’t actually dare … we were not alone …. and I said, “No, I have to do this myself” … and I meant that too. I did not even want to burden my partner and tried to process everything on my own as much as possible
. ecstatic, sublime, divine, blissful, intense, wonderful, incomparable.
That our relationship has ended is extremely frustrating, sad … and unnecessary in my eyes … I wish it were different … Without a doubt I am looking for soul love again … Other relationships do not even come close to such a love, they are unsatisfactory and therefore also of a temporary duration.
My other loves are young people and writing – in which I can express the passion that I would also like to experience in a love affair. You transform the love that you could have for a partner into other expressions of love / expressions.
I hope that someday I will be given the opportunity to reveal my deepest feelings of love to those who also dare to receive and respond to those feelings.
I want to share them so much… .. and reciprocity….